My premium membership is about to run out in about two weeks time. I am considering closing it down, maybe to replace it with a new one under a different name. Here is why.
I keep struggling with serious streaks of (clinical) depression. Last year I have begun to blog about this struggle using my alias "Nullwert" as the blogs title and domain name. I had realized that the ironic play of the name - its first meaning being "null value", a term from programming, but for most automatically sounding like "being of no value" in German - had taken a tragical turn, showing how little I valued myself and my doings nullwert.de/about/
. "Nullwert" is now invariably a representation of my depression, not of myself
nor of an ironic view of myself.
I do not want my photos or whatever else I decide to post from my creative endeavors to be automatically associated with my depression - unless I consciously wanted to put it in this unique context (like this maybe: nullwert.deviantart.com/art/So…
. Not even if I knew I was the only person to even be aware of this association.
I could imagine continueing this account for explicitely providing this very context - for individual works of mine, maybe to start some kind of community actions, depression awareness
or something like this, or to promote others' works www.deviantart.com/#order=9&q=…
I don't know yet. I'd be glad to read from the few passing by here once and again what your opinion would be on this. Thank you.